Jakarta, 23th January 2010
11:01 PM
Beberapa hari ini gue sedang merenung~
apa gue salah ya?
Apa gue bego nyia-nyiain dia?
apa gue bener-bener tepat untuk ga hub ama dia?
kenapa rasa sepi dan sakitnya baru gue rasain sekarang?
Kenapa begitu menusuk sampai rasanya dada ini sesak?
apa gue menyesal?
Yang jelas gue belom bisa rela ngeliadh dia sama cewe itu
Kenapa?
Bukankah itu memank suatu hal yang wajar terjadi
Kenapa rasanya susah diterima?
apa masih ada kemungkinan untuk kembali ke masa lalu?
Rasanya diri ini ga kuat untuk menghadapi dunia masa depan
Rasanya kaki ini sulit untuk melangkah lagi
Tiba-tiba semua tentang dia kembali meracuni pikiran gue
Gimana lagi gue harus bilang gue masih suka ama dia?
Gimana lagi gue harus tahan diri gue ga melakukan apa2 ngeliad dia dengan cewe lain?
Gimana lagi gue bisa punya stok air mata yang bakal gue habisin tiap malem gue mau tidur ?
Sampai kapan?
Rasanya pengen bange bisa kaya dulu
Tapi kayanya ga mungkin
Gimana bisa kaya dulu
Mereka pun pasti benci ama diri gue ini
Gue pun sendiri jijik dengan diri gue ini..
Siapa gue?
Ga patut dicintai..
Ga patut suka ama dia..
Huff..
Somehow gue merasa suatu hari nanti gue bakal insane kalo seandainya gue masih ga bisa menghadapi realita gue ga bisa sama dia lagi.. huff..
sedih sih
gue yang bego
gue yang salah karena gue pikir gue bisa membuat diri dia jauh lebih baik tanpa gue
toh malah buktinya gue yang loyo tanpa dia
apa dia masih inget ama janji yang pernah gue buadh ama dia?
kenapa dia bisa lupan janji itu dan pergi dengan cewe lain tanpa nanya2 gue lagi?
ga ngerti lah~
I know I'm wrong..
Yeahh..
Back again..
G tau g salah kl g ngmg gni..
"G benci ama hdup g yg skrg.. G ga mau gni.. G mw ky dl az.."
G tau bgt g salah.. Karena life iz a gift.. And you muzt be grateful of it..
Fine..
Stlah masa2 suram g dah bz g lewatin..
That blue november in 2009..
G kr g dah bz rize up lg..
Tp sprtina skrg ini g "jatoh" lg..
Overstressed..
Depresi maybe?
Gila.. Yeah...
G pikir.. G mzi harus "btahan" dan g mzi bz kontrol diri g untuk kuat dan ga mikirin hal2 yg bkin g depresi lg.. Yeaaah the things..
Mgkin g emank bnran uda menjadi seorang yg MPD ato DID x..
Ini titik kelemahan g..
Disaat g trlihat bz dan kuat utk hadapin sgala macem masalah2 dihidup g ampe 16th skrg ini..
Mgkin masalah "kehilangan seseorang yg penting" itu masalah yg belum bz g hadapin dgn dewasa..
Pdahal g tw ithu adalah salah satu proses pndewasaan..
Tp rasanya stres bgt..
Ga kuat rasainnya..
Pgen mati tw ga..
*yeah g tw g salah lg saat ngmg bgini..*
Dan ampe skrg g ga tw hal ap yg bz menjadi cure bwt g.. Untuk hal itu..
G ttp harus bz brpikir rasional bahwa akhirnya lingkungan skitar pazti akan brubah seiring wktu brjalan..
"Time changes everything..
And nothing lazt forever.."
Tapi knp perasaan g x ini lbi ssh dikontrol dgn pikiran g..
"g ga mw ky gni.. G mw smua sama ky dl.. Jgn pernah brubah.."
Egois.. Childish..
Cm bz jd ky anak kcil yg merengek minta permen dan harus mndapatkannya..
I've tried not to be like that..
I've tried as hard as I could..
But the result iz still.. Pain..
Kyna g bner2 hopeless utk hal ini..
Arrrgh....
G jd berasa.. G ini manusia gagal.. Manusia idiot dan manusia yg egois..
At the end
G jd bnci diri g lg.. *lagi2 g sadar kl g salah apabila g bnci diri g.. G tw g ga blh ky gt*
...
G harap bkal ad prubahan scpatny..
G butuh pmulihan Tuhan..
Argghh.. G butuh retreat..
G butuh campur tanganNya untuk ubahkan g lg sperti sdia kala..
Karna g dah coba kontrol diri g dgn kkuatan g ndiri. Dan g ga sanggup merubah smua itu..
G butuh Dia..
G mw balik datang ama Dia..
G mw bgt..
Karena disaat g jatuh dan ga ad org yg rasanya mengerti g..
Yg rasanya cm bz merezpon sbagaimana rezpon orang dunia pada umumnya..
"udah lah ven u bz kq laluin smua.."
"sabar ya.."
Yg kl kalian tau..
Itu ga ckp bwt jd cure dr otak g yg dah ngalamin brain damage utk hal kehilangan temen.. Kehilangan sapa az yg g sayangi..
Itu ga ckp..
Tp entah knp hari ini
G disadarin lg..
Kl ada Tuhan disana..
Membuka tanganNya sambil ngmg..
"Ven, balik lg.. Dateng lg ke Bapa.. Jgn pgi menjauh lg.. Jgn tinggalin Bapa lg"
G bz melihat lg kazih Dia yg everlazting..
Rasanya disini bnr2 bkin g mw nangiz skenceng2na..
Tp finelah..
G sk stress dan depresi g hari ini..
G ska g merasakan Tuhan hadir lg..
Thankz again to Him.. Jesus Chrizt..
Jakarta, 11st jan 09
@My Cloudy room
21:11
Back again..
G tau g salah kl g ngmg gni..
"G benci ama hdup g yg skrg.. G ga mau gni.. G mw ky dl az.."
G tau bgt g salah.. Karena life iz a gift.. And you muzt be grateful of it..
Fine..
Stlah masa2 suram g dah bz g lewatin..
That blue november in 2009..
G kr g dah bz rize up lg..
Tp sprtina skrg ini g "jatoh" lg..
Overstressed..
Depresi maybe?
Gila.. Yeah...
G pikir.. G mzi harus "btahan" dan g mzi bz kontrol diri g untuk kuat dan ga mikirin hal2 yg bkin g depresi lg.. Yeaaah the things..
Mgkin g emank bnran uda menjadi seorang yg MPD ato DID x..
Ini titik kelemahan g..
Disaat g trlihat bz dan kuat utk hadapin sgala macem masalah2 dihidup g ampe 16th skrg ini..
Mgkin masalah "kehilangan seseorang yg penting" itu masalah yg belum bz g hadapin dgn dewasa..
Pdahal g tw ithu adalah salah satu proses pndewasaan..
Tp rasanya stres bgt..
Ga kuat rasainnya..
Pgen mati tw ga..
*yeah g tw g salah lg saat ngmg bgini..*
Dan ampe skrg g ga tw hal ap yg bz menjadi cure bwt g.. Untuk hal itu..
G ttp harus bz brpikir rasional bahwa akhirnya lingkungan skitar pazti akan brubah seiring wktu brjalan..
"Time changes everything..
And nothing lazt forever.."
Tapi knp perasaan g x ini lbi ssh dikontrol dgn pikiran g..
"g ga mw ky gni.. G mw smua sama ky dl.. Jgn pernah brubah.."
Egois.. Childish..
Cm bz jd ky anak kcil yg merengek minta permen dan harus mndapatkannya..
I've tried not to be like that..
I've tried as hard as I could..
But the result iz still.. Pain..
Kyna g bner2 hopeless utk hal ini..
Arrrgh....
G jd berasa.. G ini manusia gagal.. Manusia idiot dan manusia yg egois..
At the end
G jd bnci diri g lg.. *lagi2 g sadar kl g salah apabila g bnci diri g.. G tw g ga blh ky gt*
...
G harap bkal ad prubahan scpatny..
G butuh pmulihan Tuhan..
Argghh.. G butuh retreat..
G butuh campur tanganNya untuk ubahkan g lg sperti sdia kala..
Karna g dah coba kontrol diri g dgn kkuatan g ndiri. Dan g ga sanggup merubah smua itu..
G butuh Dia..
G mw balik datang ama Dia..
G mw bgt..
Karena disaat g jatuh dan ga ad org yg rasanya mengerti g..
Yg rasanya cm bz merezpon sbagaimana rezpon orang dunia pada umumnya..
"udah lah ven u bz kq laluin smua.."
"sabar ya.."
Yg kl kalian tau..
Itu ga ckp bwt jd cure dr otak g yg dah ngalamin brain damage utk hal kehilangan temen.. Kehilangan sapa az yg g sayangi..
Itu ga ckp..
Tp entah knp hari ini
G disadarin lg..
Kl ada Tuhan disana..
Membuka tanganNya sambil ngmg..
"Ven, balik lg.. Dateng lg ke Bapa.. Jgn pgi menjauh lg.. Jgn tinggalin Bapa lg"
G bz melihat lg kazih Dia yg everlazting..
Rasanya disini bnr2 bkin g mw nangiz skenceng2na..
Tp finelah..
G sk stress dan depresi g hari ini..
G ska g merasakan Tuhan hadir lg..
Thankz again to Him.. Jesus Chrizt..
Jakarta, 11st jan 09
@My Cloudy room
21:11
AnimonSound @ CL, 3rd Jan 2009
Hemm~
Hari ini ad event di cl~
Animonsound
Tadinya aq kira bakal sepi~
tau2 rame juga yang cosplay~ hehehe~
seru~!
Hari ini seru banget~
cosplay
ngumpul2 ama temen2
baik temen skul dan temen gading~
^__^
seru lah pokoqnya
huff~
untung ada event yang kaya gini
disaat aq lagi ad masalah, pusing dsb~
rasanya ilank~ XD
smoga event binus minggu depan bakal seseru ini ^^
aaa
tinggal menanti foto2nya az deh ^__^
thanks God untuk hari ini~
Hari ini ad event di cl~
Animonsound
Tadinya aq kira bakal sepi~
tau2 rame juga yang cosplay~ hehehe~
seru~!
Hari ini seru banget~
cosplay
ngumpul2 ama temen2
baik temen skul dan temen gading~
^__^
seru lah pokoqnya
huff~
untung ada event yang kaya gini
disaat aq lagi ad masalah, pusing dsb~
rasanya ilank~ XD
smoga event binus minggu depan bakal seseru ini ^^
aaa
tinggal menanti foto2nya az deh ^__^
thanks God untuk hari ini~
Life.. What's about it?
Jakarta, 18th Dec 09
11:58 PM
Huff diary~
Hari ini cape banget~
Jam 12 ampe jem 1an pegi ke PV bareng vel~
Trus nyuzul demon ke empo scara dia ajakin hangout bareng ama endiru~
Trus beraza ga "in" az~
Ga sreg ama aura2 mereka yang dah superb banget~ XD
Trus gue menyingkir ama vel~
Makan fiesta steak~
Trus kabur ke GKJ Pasar Baru buat nntn teater tarQ~
sekitar jam 7an lah nyampe sana~
Trus jam 11 baru nyampe rumah~
cape~
Hemmm~
Malam ini gue kepikiran~
Sebenernya hidup ini kita ngapain?
Cape kalo rutinitasnya gini terus
Cape kalo cuma makan tidur ketawa2 ama temen hahaha hihihih
Koq gue ga ngerazain friendship yang kaya dulu lagi ya
Gue pengen ketawa gue yang dulu
Yang bener2 dari happiness sama temen2
Tapi entah kenapa temen2 nya dah ga sebegitu menyenangkan lagi
Mereka yang sekarang menyenangkan~
Mereka yang sekarang bukannya menyebalkan~
Tapi entah gue ga dapet soul nya lagi~
Kaya dulu~
Sedih deh~
>.<
Kalo begini terus~
Lama2 berasa hidup ga berarti~
Kayanya emank gue butuh banget ke gereja
Dulu kayanya ga separah ini gue berasa hampanya~
Cape~
God help me please~
11:58 PM
Huff diary~
Hari ini cape banget~
Jam 12 ampe jem 1an pegi ke PV bareng vel~
Trus nyuzul demon ke empo scara dia ajakin hangout bareng ama endiru~
Trus beraza ga "in" az~
Ga sreg ama aura2 mereka yang dah superb banget~ XD
Trus gue menyingkir ama vel~
Makan fiesta steak~
Trus kabur ke GKJ Pasar Baru buat nntn teater tarQ~
sekitar jam 7an lah nyampe sana~
Trus jam 11 baru nyampe rumah~
cape~
Hemmm~
Malam ini gue kepikiran~
Sebenernya hidup ini kita ngapain?
Cape kalo rutinitasnya gini terus
Cape kalo cuma makan tidur ketawa2 ama temen hahaha hihihih
Koq gue ga ngerazain friendship yang kaya dulu lagi ya
Gue pengen ketawa gue yang dulu
Yang bener2 dari happiness sama temen2
Tapi entah kenapa temen2 nya dah ga sebegitu menyenangkan lagi
Mereka yang sekarang menyenangkan~
Mereka yang sekarang bukannya menyebalkan~
Tapi entah gue ga dapet soul nya lagi~
Kaya dulu~
Sedih deh~
>.<
Kalo begini terus~
Lama2 berasa hidup ga berarti~
Kayanya emank gue butuh banget ke gereja
Dulu kayanya ga separah ini gue berasa hampanya~
Cape~
God help me please~
New Moon Fever
Jakarta, 27th Nov 2009
00.20
Gilaaaaaaaa~~
Setelah sekian lama penantian gue akan new moon
AKHIRNYA
A.K.H.I.R.N.Y.A
KELUAR JUGA
Dan gue harus nntn~!!!
Tapi gue baru bisa nntn hari senin tanggal 30 nnti
soalnya kalo gue nntn hari sabtu/minggu~
RAME BANGET PASTINYA
Hmmmmm~
Pengen cepet nntn~ >.<
Aaaaaa~
Edward Edward
Bella Bella
Carlisle Esme
Emmett Alice
Jasper Rosalie~
Kangen sama semuanyaaaaaa~ >.<
Harus nntn Harus nntn~!!!
Notes 4 My Bro~ (notes lama tapi lupa di publish)
Jakarta, 14 Agustus 2009
Tinggal 5 hari lagi sebelum tanggal 19 Agustus 2009
Tanggal kepergian seorang teman yang sangat berharga seperti seorang kakak~
Aku duduk sendiri diruangan yang sudah lama menjadi kamarku ini...
Merenung sejenak untuk kesekian kali..
Hahaha...
Mencoba mengerti..
Berharap dengan demikian..
Aku dapat menghadapi hal ini lebih kuat lagi..
Entah kapan bisa bertemu kembali~
Persahabatan ini mungkin tetap ada..
1 tahun
2 tahun
5 tahun
Bagaimana 10 tahun kedepan?
Hwaaa...
Semua sudah memiliki hidupnya sendiri~
Dengan kesederhanaan ikatan bernama "persahabatan"
Mungkinkah mengenalnya sampai selama-lamanya?
Aku tahu..
Perpisahan adalah salah satu proses kehidupan yang harus dilewati
Orang-orang yang kusayangi disekitarku..
Pasti aku pun harus berpisah dengan mereka suatu hari nanti..
Ingin sekali kukatakan..
Terimakasih atas semuanya..
Memori persahabatan yang pernah diberikan padaku...
Kurasa ini lebih dari cukup..
Hanya untuk seorang aku..
Aku senang..
Aku sedih..
Entah bagaimana mengekspresikannya dalam waktu yang bersamaan..
Ingin menangis..
Bahkan juga ingin tertawa..
Banyak hal yang harus dikatakan..
Tetapi tak mampu mengatakan satu pun sekarang..
Huuuhhh...
Hal mengenai perpisahan memang selalu paling menyebalkan dihidupku
Aku benci perpisahan
Tapi inilah hidup..
Haizz... >.<
Sebenarnya ga mau mengakui
Pepatah yang ada berikut ini
"Friends come and go"
Well..
Walaupun jarak dan waktu menjadi halangan..
Harusnya..
Kita tetap sahabat kan?
^_^
Rasanya waktu berjalan begitu cepat..
Sampai saatnya tanggal 19 Agustus 2009 nanti
Kuharap aku bisa mengucapkannya tanpa menangis~ hahaha~
"See you next time bro~ Take care and don't forget me yuph " ^___^
*always pray for his future and his life*
Tinggal 5 hari lagi sebelum tanggal 19 Agustus 2009
Tanggal kepergian seorang teman yang sangat berharga seperti seorang kakak~
Aku duduk sendiri diruangan yang sudah lama menjadi kamarku ini...
Merenung sejenak untuk kesekian kali..
Hahaha...
Mencoba mengerti..
Berharap dengan demikian..
Aku dapat menghadapi hal ini lebih kuat lagi..
Entah kapan bisa bertemu kembali~
Persahabatan ini mungkin tetap ada..
1 tahun
2 tahun
5 tahun
Bagaimana 10 tahun kedepan?
Hwaaa...
Semua sudah memiliki hidupnya sendiri~
Dengan kesederhanaan ikatan bernama "persahabatan"
Mungkinkah mengenalnya sampai selama-lamanya?
Aku tahu..
Perpisahan adalah salah satu proses kehidupan yang harus dilewati
Orang-orang yang kusayangi disekitarku..
Pasti aku pun harus berpisah dengan mereka suatu hari nanti..
Ingin sekali kukatakan..
Terimakasih atas semuanya..
Memori persahabatan yang pernah diberikan padaku...
Kurasa ini lebih dari cukup..
Hanya untuk seorang aku..
Aku senang..
Aku sedih..
Entah bagaimana mengekspresikannya dalam waktu yang bersamaan..
Ingin menangis..
Bahkan juga ingin tertawa..
Banyak hal yang harus dikatakan..
Tetapi tak mampu mengatakan satu pun sekarang..
Huuuhhh...
Hal mengenai perpisahan memang selalu paling menyebalkan dihidupku
Aku benci perpisahan
Tapi inilah hidup..
Haizz... >.<
Sebenarnya ga mau mengakui
Pepatah yang ada berikut ini
"Friends come and go"
Well..
Walaupun jarak dan waktu menjadi halangan..
Harusnya..
Kita tetap sahabat kan?
^_^
Rasanya waktu berjalan begitu cepat..
Sampai saatnya tanggal 19 Agustus 2009 nanti
Kuharap aku bisa mengucapkannya tanpa menangis~ hahaha~
"See you next time bro~ Take care and don't forget me yuph " ^___^
*always pray for his future and his life*
Senangnya~
Jakarta, 25th Oct 2009
21:52
Hari ini ngerayain ultahnya gabu~
Walaupun ultahnya gabu itu kmaren~
XD
di sport mall kelapa gading
D'cost Seafood Restaurant~
Gue kesana nebeng dewe~
Berangkat jam 12 lewat~
Sampai sana jam 1 kurang lah ya~
Dah lengkap tuh anak2 nya~
seneng banget bisa ketemu mereka semua~
dah lama ga ngumpul semua kaya gitu~
^___^
Makan2 semua disana~
Sambil ngakak2 sakidh perudh gara2 pada gila2an ngelawaknya
Seru banget dehhh~
Kangen ama suasana kaya gini~ ^_^
Seneng banget
Yang jelas ga bisa diungkapkan dengan kata2~
Disini bisa ketemu sekki, yo-chan, sora, jouya, susu, luciel, risa, enma, shinn, ayuzz, qyuqyu, adam, caca, skylite, nesia, ren, yudis...
Smuanya
Banyak lagi yang lain~
Seru~ ^_^
saiank ryoga ga disini~
Kalo dia ada disini~
mungkin makin seru~ ^___^
cepet2lah kau pulang~
temen2 disini dah pada nunggu~
^___^
miss u bro~
XD
Thanks gabu untuk pesta ultah mu yang seru~
Slamet ulang taun yah ^___^
21:52
Hari ini ngerayain ultahnya gabu~
Walaupun ultahnya gabu itu kmaren~
XD
di sport mall kelapa gading
D'cost Seafood Restaurant~
Gue kesana nebeng dewe~
Berangkat jam 12 lewat~
Sampai sana jam 1 kurang lah ya~
Dah lengkap tuh anak2 nya~
seneng banget bisa ketemu mereka semua~
dah lama ga ngumpul semua kaya gitu~
^___^
Makan2 semua disana~
Sambil ngakak2 sakidh perudh gara2 pada gila2an ngelawaknya
Seru banget dehhh~
Kangen ama suasana kaya gini~ ^_^
Seneng banget
Yang jelas ga bisa diungkapkan dengan kata2~
Disini bisa ketemu sekki, yo-chan, sora, jouya, susu, luciel, risa, enma, shinn, ayuzz, qyuqyu, adam, caca, skylite, nesia, ren, yudis...
Smuanya
Banyak lagi yang lain~
Seru~ ^_^
saiank ryoga ga disini~
Kalo dia ada disini~
mungkin makin seru~ ^___^
cepet2lah kau pulang~
temen2 disini dah pada nunggu~
^___^
miss u bro~
XD
Thanks gabu untuk pesta ultah mu yang seru~
Slamet ulang taun yah ^___^
"Yes, My Lord"
Jakarta, 19th Oct 2009
21:01
@ My room~
Huwaaaaaaaaa~~~~
Bisa gilaaaaa~
Gue keracunan KUROSHITSUJI~ OMG~!!!
Pertama kali gue tau ni anime~ dari cosplay~
Biasa2 aja~
Cuma naksir aja ama baju nya dan gue memutuskan untuk cosplay-in itu~
Tapi ternyata punya ternyata~
Sang kembaran alias cindy punya animenya~!!!!
Alhasil gue nntn juga~
Dan gue KERACUNAN~
gilaaaa ini aja gue dah kehabisan episode buat ditonton
Lagi nungguin cindy copyin lagi~
Gilaaaa sakaw nih gue @_@
Gimana gitu ya
Sebastiannya itu HOT banget~
wkakakaka~
Maksudnya~
Dia itu COWO Banget~
Mati lahh~
Kalo ada cowo kaya dia
Mimisan tiap hari gue~ @_@
Terlalu perfect~!
Mau deh gue jadi cielnya~ wkwkwkwk~
Aduuuuuu
Sebastian sebastian sebastian
Ciel ciel ciel~
Perfect pairing~
Gue suka semuanya @_@
Kuroshitsuji mantebhhh
"bocchan~"
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~
Kapan gue punya cowo kaya gitu
Selalu setia ada disamping gue
Jagain gue
Ga akan biarin gue terluka~
Selalu ada saat gue butuhin~
Bisa jadi baby sitter gue~
Berani berjuang dan ga takut mati~
Demi gue seorang~
dan perfect dalam melakukan segala hal~
OMG
Mungkin gue ga akan married ama sapa2~
Gue cuma mau married ama orang kaya sebastian~ wkakakakak
*ekstrim*
Buat dia gue rela deh ngurusin badan fitness diet sit up perawatan kulit meni pedi~
Ke salon mandi susu setiap hari, jadi vegetarian, les kepribadian~
Ooooo emmmm jiiiiii~~
Sebastian wa ore no gotsujin-sama~ wkakakakakakaka~
*nyembahhh*
Alive?? Knowing about something isn't always good, but when we don't know anything, it is more than not good.
We live...
For what reason??
We're all Alone. From the begining we're all have nothing.
Together we remain until now. For something unpredicted. Something that nobodies know.
Is that something what we have to achieve? or a tragedy will we had? or we just live here for nothing?
Many reason, keep us living. Family, friends, our goal, and ourselves. Even we have to lie to ourselves.
We traveling the earth, a journey through times...
Trying to reach our goal in live to achieve something, as a prove that we are living in this world...
We follow with the flow of the world... we'll grow into something new..
We didn't know our future yet, there's no certainty in life.
Everything is not going like what have been planned.
Tragedies and miracles, unbelievable thing occurs upon our daily live...
Human always curious.. They always want to know about everything...
And above all of curiousity is the answer of "who created us, or, why we created, where did we come from??"
For now, it is something we called The Almighty God, the creator of everything and so called on.
But there's so many version of God, which one we should believe on?
Even though human keep on believing on them. But, do you ever ask yourself? Are they really exist?
This world is confusing. Not everything can be take by nowadays logic mind.
Logically people think that something like ghost is not exist. But they do believe in God?
Aren't they selfish for deciding like that? We have already seen so many phenomenon arround us.
Spiritual, Mystical and Occult things, there's so many things outside of our narrow mind.
Something that can not be accepted by your little tiny brain.
Could someone else around us give a logical explanation for it?
About Spirit? Ghost? or even God?
An embodiment, had occur all over the stories about god in this world.
A Blasphemy. Vivid. Something make you want to believe in it.
Human seeks a truth in God, they just doesn't have anything to rely on.
So they keep relying on god, as so far we believe in them.
Believe. It is a powerful thing. When we believe it exist, it will.
There's somebody, that keep remain here on search for the answer of life.
That people, keep come back alive, more than once, just to seek the truth.
But, like other people, it can be uncover... but, in search of truth, there's no word like surrender...
Somehow he realize, something precious for us...
And many realities about human... it just a little bit again for knowing the entire scenario of God...
But now... we just need to keep living... become as ourselves...
On his search, he found something, that he left for knowing the truth...
They are :
- Family, the one who give us warm of affection...
- Friendship, keep us living in happiness, friend that can be trust...
- Love, for the most important person in your live, that we keep dearest in our heart...
- and Himself... (mean : ourselves)
But, knowing all thing... there's no perfect life... happy family... everlasting friendship... eternal love...
There's no such thing like that exist... This world is just gone entirely to the wrong way...
Such as Love and Peace are not exist... Also for Freedom.. It just a fake freedom... not entirely free..
Faith? who can you really keep faith on? who do you really believe when you even not trust yourself..
Love? What are those? Just a single word saying and affection and in times it aging... like us..
Turn into dust of memories.. becoming one with the stream of circulation...
Nowadays we know, that evil conquering the world, even you don't want to admit it.. it just true..
People are such a rubbish, treating other people just like them... yes, indeed, rubbish...
Rape, Killing, Robbery, Abuse, Violance etc it just becoming daily things outside...
They done it without any single feeling of guilt...
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Human getting to much confident... their ego growing up more and more until it feel gross...
They want everything..
They become over-proud of themselves, they believe that they are the best creature exist in this world..
They claim the earth as their planet.. They think they own everything in this planet...
They just going absurdly wrong...
Place them into a the highest place to see themselves falling down into deep down of abyss...
World in madness, it will return again into chaos, to once again.. repeat the tragedy... over and over..
A never ending stories... An Endless... But yet not eternal...
Now, when it comes into the one you all mentioned as The End of Time...
Just really think it... who will you depend on? will you pray? will you repent for your sins?
Or doing the opposite? Turn crazy, knowing that your life is gonna end soon?
We will see... With our very own eyes... The Day... But very once again... not the end of everything..
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Believe. Power of everything. When you believe with 100% of your heart and brain on it. It will happen.
Brain Power is great. Even it still not been shown up in our eyes...
Just know this... our senses is a gifts that are the most amazing thing in this world.
We live until now giving all effort on everything... but again, just believe, that u not giving all on it...
Even a genius only use 15% max of their brain power on everthing on his/her entire life.
Not even until now, have reached out a new number of result further from that...
Will you ever witness this?
You may see them on the record of the past...
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Written above by : Prophet of Disaster, Zealotous.
Any source and information will be found over 10.000 books.
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For what reason??
We're all Alone. From the begining we're all have nothing.
Together we remain until now. For something unpredicted. Something that nobodies know.
Is that something what we have to achieve? or a tragedy will we had? or we just live here for nothing?
Many reason, keep us living. Family, friends, our goal, and ourselves. Even we have to lie to ourselves.
We traveling the earth, a journey through times...
Trying to reach our goal in live to achieve something, as a prove that we are living in this world...
We follow with the flow of the world... we'll grow into something new..
We didn't know our future yet, there's no certainty in life.
Everything is not going like what have been planned.
Tragedies and miracles, unbelievable thing occurs upon our daily live...
Human always curious.. They always want to know about everything...
And above all of curiousity is the answer of "who created us, or, why we created, where did we come from??"
For now, it is something we called The Almighty God, the creator of everything and so called on.
But there's so many version of God, which one we should believe on?
Even though human keep on believing on them. But, do you ever ask yourself? Are they really exist?
This world is confusing. Not everything can be take by nowadays logic mind.
Logically people think that something like ghost is not exist. But they do believe in God?
Aren't they selfish for deciding like that? We have already seen so many phenomenon arround us.
Spiritual, Mystical and Occult things, there's so many things outside of our narrow mind.
Something that can not be accepted by your little tiny brain.
Could someone else around us give a logical explanation for it?
About Spirit? Ghost? or even God?
An embodiment, had occur all over the stories about god in this world.
A Blasphemy. Vivid. Something make you want to believe in it.
Human seeks a truth in God, they just doesn't have anything to rely on.
So they keep relying on god, as so far we believe in them.
Believe. It is a powerful thing. When we believe it exist, it will.
There's somebody, that keep remain here on search for the answer of life.
That people, keep come back alive, more than once, just to seek the truth.
But, like other people, it can be uncover... but, in search of truth, there's no word like surrender...
Somehow he realize, something precious for us...
And many realities about human... it just a little bit again for knowing the entire scenario of God...
But now... we just need to keep living... become as ourselves...
On his search, he found something, that he left for knowing the truth...
They are :
- Family, the one who give us warm of affection...
- Friendship, keep us living in happiness, friend that can be trust...
- Love, for the most important person in your live, that we keep dearest in our heart...
- and Himself... (mean : ourselves)
But, knowing all thing... there's no perfect life... happy family... everlasting friendship... eternal love...
There's no such thing like that exist... This world is just gone entirely to the wrong way...
Such as Love and Peace are not exist... Also for Freedom.. It just a fake freedom... not entirely free..
Faith? who can you really keep faith on? who do you really believe when you even not trust yourself..
Love? What are those? Just a single word saying and affection and in times it aging... like us..
Turn into dust of memories.. becoming one with the stream of circulation...
Nowadays we know, that evil conquering the world, even you don't want to admit it.. it just true..
People are such a rubbish, treating other people just like them... yes, indeed, rubbish...
Rape, Killing, Robbery, Abuse, Violance etc it just becoming daily things outside...
They done it without any single feeling of guilt...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Human getting to much confident... their ego growing up more and more until it feel gross...
They want everything..
They become over-proud of themselves, they believe that they are the best creature exist in this world..
They claim the earth as their planet.. They think they own everything in this planet...
They just going absurdly wrong...
Place them into a the highest place to see themselves falling down into deep down of abyss...
World in madness, it will return again into chaos, to once again.. repeat the tragedy... over and over..
A never ending stories... An Endless... But yet not eternal...
Now, when it comes into the one you all mentioned as The End of Time...
Just really think it... who will you depend on? will you pray? will you repent for your sins?
Or doing the opposite? Turn crazy, knowing that your life is gonna end soon?
We will see... With our very own eyes... The Day... But very once again... not the end of everything..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Believe. Power of everything. When you believe with 100% of your heart and brain on it. It will happen.
Brain Power is great. Even it still not been shown up in our eyes...
Just know this... our senses is a gifts that are the most amazing thing in this world.
We live until now giving all effort on everything... but again, just believe, that u not giving all on it...
Even a genius only use 15% max of their brain power on everthing on his/her entire life.
Not even until now, have reached out a new number of result further from that...
Will you ever witness this?
You may see them on the record of the past...
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Written above by : Prophet of Disaster, Zealotous.
Any source and information will be found over 10.000 books.
Copied from Luciel Luciefer's note ^__^ Thanks 4 sharing good notes~ XD
