This Life is Tiring Me

Jakarta, 3rd January 2011
9:33 AM
@My Workplace

Tired..
Is the only word I can say to express my emotion now...
I feel so tired of my life..
So many burdens I've to bear.. and so many responsibilities I have to face..
How come..
I'm still seventeen..
Still too young to face this reality..
I feel this world is riding me on my shoulder..
It's too heavy..
If I have any energy left to shout..
Maybe I wanna shout out loud..
But how pity even I feel I don't have a sound to shout for..
Too tired to...

Friends, Family, Aikido, Cosplay, Work...
All of my life aspects are killing me..
Today is really another life crisis for me..
Jesus, how can I survive when I feel a whole world is laying down all its weight in my shoulder?
How can I revive?
How can I ?

I won't say, "why me?"
I'm a strong veny..
I won't be a weak even I can't stand on my knees for a moment..
I won't be a weak even I can't understand how to face this life..
I won't be a weak even I'm..
I'm too tired to be a living..

I'll always say "try me"
I'm a strong veny..
I will say, I'll put my faith in Jesus that he will carry my heavy burdens..
I will say, I have Jesus even all of my friends're leaving me..
I will say, I'm
I'm giving my life to Jesus..

because I can't take it any longer if I'm doing this alone..
This world is straining me..

Now I'm an obstinate girl
I succeed to gain that obstinacy..
I don't cry a lot nowadays..
even it's suffocating me..
I'll walk my path..